42. Doris Lessing's Battle Scars (TIME July 28, 2008)
In what she claims is her final book, Doris Lessing makes peace with painful memories of her childhood By WILLIAM LEE ADAMS

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In 1920s Rhodesia, leopards and snakes roamed the bush. Yet for 6-year-old Doris Lessing, this inhospitable environment offered a welcome refuge from her parents: Alfred, a soldier whose leg had been shattered by shrapnel in World War I, and Emily, a wartime nurse who helped to amputate it. Crouched in a patch of brush, Lessing would cover her ears and shout, 'I won't listen,' in an effort to drown out her parents' incessant talk of tanks, howitzers and death. 'The trenches were as present to me as anything I actually saw around me,' Lessing recalls in her riveting new book Alfred and Emily. 'And here I still am, trying to get out from under that monstrous legacy, trying to get free.'
Lessing's book, an account of her childhood on the frontlines of her parents' horrific memories, is an unusual work in two parts. The first half, a novella, imagines the lives her parents could have lived in England had the war never occurred; the second half, a memoir, recounts how their lives actually unfolded in their mud-brick farmhouse in Rhodesia. Together, they form a painful meditation on family and war, one in which the distance between dreams and reality is measured with disappointment. Lessing's life, we discover, falls in the chasm between them.
'The book emerged on my inner agenda without my planning it,' says Lessing, sitting in the ramshackle North London home where she has lived for 25 years. In a career spanning six decades she has churned out nearly 50 books on an old-fashioned typewriter. But at 88, she insists that Alfred and Emily will be her last. Lessing says her energy has been sapped by ever-increasing burdens, such as taking care of her middle-aged diabetic son and dealing with the publicity she has faced since becoming the oldest recipient of the Nobel Prize for Literature last October. 'When you're young you doubtless think that you're going to sail into a lovely lake of quietude and peace,' she says. 'This is profoundly untrue.'

A. 어휘
scar 상처자국. Rhodesia 前 영국식민지(현 짐바브웨공화국). leopard 표범.
roam 돌아다니다. inhospitable 손님접대가 나쁜, 불친절한, 살기에 부적절한.
refuge 피난처. shatter 산산이 부서지다. shrapnel 榴散彈(유산탄).
amputate [팔, 다리 등을] 절단하다. crouch 쭈그리다, 웅크리다.
patch 좁은 땅, 밭, 조각. brush 정글, 삼림지대.
drown out 쫓아내다, 들리지 않게 하다. incessant 그칠 새 없는, 不斷(부단)한.
howitzer 榴彈砲(유탄포)[곡사포의 일종]. trench 참호.
riveting [못 박히듯이] 황홀케 하는. monstrous 소름끼치는, 기괴한, 거대한.
legacy 유물, 遺産(유산). account 이야기. frontline 최전선. horrific 무서운.
novella 단편소설, 小品(소품). memoir 회고록, 實錄(실록). recount 자세히 말하다.
unfold 펼치다, 드러내다, 밝히다. mud-brick 흙벽돌. meditation 冥想(명상).
.measure 측정하다. disappointment 실망. chasm [지면. 암석 따위의] 갈라진 틈, 협곡.
agenda 비망록, 의제. ramshackle 삐걱거리는, 흔들흔들하는. span ...에 미치다, 걸치다.
churn ...을 휘젓다. sap 약화시키다, 기력을 빼앗다, 樹液(수액). burden 짐.
diabetic 당뇨병에 걸린. publicity 평판, 공개. recipient 수상자, 수령인.
quietude 平穩(평온), 안식. profoundly 완전히, 깊이.

B. 구문
- The trenches were as present . . . saw around me.
[그 참호들(아버지가 말하는 참호)은 내가 주변에서 실제로 본 어떠한 참호 못지 않게 나에게 생생하게 존재하는 것이었다]
-the lives her parents could have . . . war never occurred.
cf. had the war never occurred→if the war had never occurred
cf. 가정법과거완료: 과거사실의 반대를 가정
→If+S+had+pp..., S+과거조동사+have+pp.
[전쟁이 결코 일어나지 않았더라면 그들(부모)이 영국에서 살 수 있었을 삶]
- a career spanning six decades→a career which spans six decades.
[60년에 달하는 경력]

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Frail and weary she may be, but Lessing still writes with the deftness and nuance that characterized her 1962 novel The Golden Notebook, one of the past century's most influential feminist works. In the memoir, she describes her father being lowered into a mine shaft, 'his wooden leg sticking out and banging against its rocky sides,' and reminisces about him hobbling over tree stumps and up hills to keep watch as she explored the veldt. In Alfred's imagined life, she makes him the successful farmer he wanted to be, and rids him of the diabetes that rendered him an invalid and eventually killed him. For good measure, says Lessing, she gave him 'a nice, sexy wife, which he would have liked.'
That sympathetic portrayal, which deletes Emily from his life, gives way to an unflattering portrait of her mother, whose 'rough, unkind' hands Lessing loathed as a child. When the family arrived on the Rhodesian farm as part of a scheme to resettle white servicemen in the British colony, Emily anticipated getting rich off sales of maize and throwing fetes with fellow settlers, only to learn that they were 'solidly working-class Scots' with whom she had little in common. Haunted by flashbacks of soldiers dying without morphine, she had a nervous breakdown: 'She called her children to her and said, 'Poor Mummy, poor, poor Mummy.' I was aged six and I hated her for it. This woman whimpering in her bed saying, Pity me, pity me.'

A. 어휘
frail 약한, 허약한. weary 지친. deftness 솜씨 좋음, 교묘함.
characterize 특색을 이루다. influential 영향을 미치는.
feminist 여권주의자, 여성 해방론자. works 작품. mine 광산. shaft 竪坑(수갱).
stick out 내밀다. bang 세게 치다. reminisce 추억하다. hobble 절름거리다.
stump 그루터기, 베어낸 나무뿌리. veldt [남아프리카의] 초원. rid of 제거하다.
diabetes 당뇨병. render ...이 되게 하다. invalid 환자. eventually 결국에는.
for good measure 덤으로. sympathetic 동정적인. portrayal 描寫(묘사), 肖像(초상).
delete_삭제하다, 말살하다. give way to 양보하다. unflattering 아부하지 않는.
hands 지배, 관리. loathe 몹시 싫어하다. resettle 다시 定住(정주)시키다.
serviceman 군인. colony 식민지. anticipate 예상하다.
off sales of maize 옥수수를 판매하여. fete 축제.
throw fetes 즉흥적으로 축제를 열다. solidly 완전히. working-class 노동자 계급.
haunt 사로잡다, 괴롭히다.
flashback 플래시백[회상 따위를 위해 장면이 되돌아가는 일].
nervous breakdown 신경쇠약. whimper 흐느껴 울다. pity 불쌍히 여기다.

B. 구문
- In Alfred's imagined life
[ 알프레드가 상상한 삶(소설 속의 알프레드의 삶)].
- only to learn→but she learned
- Haunted→As she had been haunted→Having_been haunted